Luke 11

"And I tell you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will instead of a fish give him a serpent; or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”  Luke 11:9-13

I confess my belligerence, my tendency to force my own agenda.  My stubbornness about other people, demanding transformation on my timeline.  I confess my reliance on my skills and talents, my striving from the flesh to put flesh to death. I confess that I try to manage everything and everyone, thinking that I somehow know what's best. I confess my inability, that as much as I think I should be, I am not up to the task.  

Father, I want more of your Spirit! I want more closeness with you, more intimacy.  I want to be sensitive to your leading, and aware of your prompting.  I want to speak when you have something to say, and be still when you would have me be still.  I want to trust you, that you will provide the opportunities and the words.  I want to rest knowing that you are active, you are transforming, you are calling--myself and others too.

And again I confess--I confess that asking for your Spirit scares me.